So...here is the long awaited news! My hcg level is in the "normal" range. It feels a little anticlimactic, because the lab result still shows "less than 2.4" (Blogger won't let me type in the "less than" symbol without messing up the whole page. I think it is an html code or something.) I've been waiting so long to hear "0.0", that it is hard to feel happy about "less than 2.4" Anyway, it looks like I've been in the "normal" range for a couple of weeks now. We could have been doing the happy dance a while ago!
I'm still waiting to hear from the oncologist, but it looks like I will do one more weekly test, and then go in every four weeks for the next year. As long as the hcg doesn't rise, then I'll just need a yearly hcg test after that.
I am cancer free. That feels really strange to say.
I guess I don't feel as elated as I thought I would. I feel relieved, but I kind of feel like crying more than cheering. I think it is because I know so many people who have cancer right now. Last week our backyard neighbor died from pancreatic cancer. Our family is praying for four other people right now who are battling cancer. Sometimes I feel guilty for being the one hearing good news. I want everyone else to be healing, and to be cancer free too!
Cancer has been such a huge part of everything I've been doing for the past 6 months (I know that 6 months is a really short time when you're talking about cancer). I also have lots of questions about how I am supposed to transition from my cancer diet. I want to build on what I've learned, and to stay healthy. It is actually really overwhelming. Maybe I just need a while to let it sink in, and a while to transition to putting my time and energy into other things.
But I am so grateful. My heart feels like it will burst. I'm so thankful for all the answers to prayers that I've received, for all the prayers by others in my behalf, for the kindness and service given to our family. I feel like when I was trying to decide how to eat, what supplements I should take, and what foods I should avoid, all the pieces of the puzzle fell into place so quickly. Then I'd read other protocols, articles, books about cancer, and I'd realize that I had been doing so many of the right things. It was miraculous. I've been healed from a cancer that is described as very aggressive (although very treatable).
I'm sure happy that I am alive and that I get to be a Mom and wife to my favorite people in the world.
Bob and my older children are gone today, so our celebration dinner

